WHEW, what a month. February was a total blur- but now I think I can finally say I’m 100% settled into my new place. It took a ton of work- much more than I expected. But now much to my excitement I am able to return to posting in my Journal regularly and making videos!
March should be a Goddess-intensive month, unlike February and the end of January where there was not a Goddess in sight. I suppose that did give you small ones time to rebuild your pathetic little cities! Well, watch out now because here I come to tear them down again!
This Journal Entry is going to be a bit long because I’ve got quite a bit of catching up to do. It’ll be filled with lots of juicy information though; it will go into depth about my personal and website history as well as give you a tease of what’s to come in March. It’ll better help explain this move of mine and what lies ahead in the future of my site. This was not only a relocation of self, but a full change of lifestyle. Read on, I dare you little ones!
Before I can explain my most recent move, you must first hear a little of this Goddess’s past… which will be great for those curious as I don’t think I have ever had the chance to go into the details about my life behind my website. So to start at the beginning….
I originally lived in Pennsylvania with my Mom (who oddly enough is an erotic dancer) until I was 18. After I graduated from High School, I moved out on my own and went to an in-state collage. There I earned a degree in Computer Science as I loved computers and thought a job surrounded by computers would be pretty darn cool. (Yes, I’m a Nerdy Giantess! ;) But specifically, I loved Digital Arts and found myself obsessively learning every art/photo/film related application I could find and taking all the digital art electives I could during school. By graduation I realized that I wasn’t completely satisfied with my education as I was now leaning more towards Art than IT! And so I decided to continue my education further into a more art related field. Special Effects, Film-making, photography were now my passion. So yearning for more education I moved to Florida where there were plenty of sexy high tech media schools.
During all this- my sexuality was really starting to get to me as I dated girls and guys alike. There was obviously something different about me. My dates often found themselves licking my foot or staring into my mouth, whether they liked it or not. I felt like I was maybe FemDom, but at the same time something was off, as I hated having my slave the same size as me. I wanted them so very small… as that was their place in my world. I also wanted to have many of them, thousands of lives in my hands. I had a burning jealousy towards Godzilla (along with the girls in Honey we Shrunk Ourselves) and often fantasized about destroying my college campus at 1000 times my normal size. It was then, during my last year of in-state college, I stumbled on the Giantess community forums (via a horny Google search!) and was completely blown away sexually. A month or so later I finally got up the courage to post and made 2 not-so-very- good-now-a-days collages and set up an email account. The feedback I got was absolutely incredible and overwhelming. Feeling a little more confident in expressing my sexuality to others (and SO fucking turned on having so many people worshiping me like tiny little bugs!) I started up my website and made my first video with the help of a close girl friend of mine who knew of my strange fantasies. This was about 4 months before I moved to Florida to pursue a new education.
For two years, I lived in Florida taking classes and studying like crazy. (And I mean CRAZY) I also got a job (paying internship) to help pay for everything and to gain experience in professional-level special effects. My website was still just a hobby, but it was quickly outgrowing that humble title. I found myself devoting more and more time (and money, including school book money!) towards my site and content, to the point of it becoming a true second life. (Student by day, Porn Star by night) I slowly became frustrated with school as I found myself wanting to crush cities more than I wanted to sit in a classroom. I daydreamed all through work too, eager to get home so that I could push the limits of my fantasies. I wanted to have one of the best Giantess sites out there. I wanted to make my fantasies a reality. I wanted to be a Giantess, a Goddess, to be worshiped by thousands!
By the 2007 Holidays it eventually came to a breaking point, the split life was taking it’s toll. I found myself -completely- worn out balancing school, a job, and my growing site. I came to realize that I was at a+ crossroad and could no longer walk the same path. I would need to either phase out my site in order to continue my education and follow my job to Hollywood or… follow my crazy passion and my heart to who knows what ends. Just a few days before New Years 2008, I made my decision. And it was one of the hardest decisions I’ve ever made.
I chose to quit my job, my school, and make my website a full time endeavor. Starting after I moved, my website would become my life. Honestly though- I should have seen this from the beginning, before I even moved to Florida. My strong sexual desires coupled with my passion for art would have towered over any other career I could have possibly had.
And I owe all of these happenings to you, my tiny worshipers. ^_^ Without your support I would have never been able to go full time on this. So I will gladly return the favor and continue to produce the highest quality content I can. And of course, a lot more of it! I think you tiny ones will be very happy with the changes!
Yes, the idea was a little intimidating at first… but I truly love what I do. And I believe that if you truly love what you do, you will succeed in what you do. And I love being a Girlzilla.
So with this radical change in lifestyle I began thinking about where to go next. I contemplated about staying in Florida for a while. But Florida is expensive. Coupled with a lack of close friends (which also means lack of shrunken people!), lack of family and not really digging the whole humidity / insane heat / smelly swamp Florida has going for it, I decided I’d be better off somewhere else. (Although to be honest, Orlando would be a great city to be a Giantess in!)
I looked at the West Coast, but the move would have been too expensive. With my friends and family all back in Pennsylvania I decided it was time to make the move back, even if only a few years. My Mom in particular helped further this decision as she recently quit her erotic dancing job for her boyfriend and was struggling financially and was depressed. So I made it one of my goals to get my Mom un-stuck by helping her find a new job and helping her find a new house. (And maybe find a new boyfriend! )
So by January 2008 I knew what I needed to do. I needed to move back home to Pennsylvania. I didn’t have a lot of money and so I decided to contact an old friend of mine…. the same girl that helped film my first few movies! ^_^ Her name is Cassandra, Cassie for short. We talked for a bit and it turned out she was in the process of moving too. So we started looking for a place together. She was also interested in becoming my Camerawoman again and surprisingly, interested in possibly getting in front of the Camera as both a Giantess or even as one of my pets! O_O After some searching, we found a really nice place in the Harrisburg area. On January 29, 2008 as you know, I moved!
The rest of February was spent fixing up the new place- painting, cleaning, moving furniture about, getting a new drivers license, you know, all that moving crap you have to do that makes you never want to move again. I was also working on the Valentine’s Day clips on the side, which is why they were so delayed. But eventually we got everything straightened out. =) Which leads me to today, the start of March. And I couldn’t be happier ^_^
So now you know tiny ones just what this Goddess has been up to.
… But what does all this mean for you, my tiny ones?
Well for one, you’ll be seeing a lot more of me. ~_^
For March alone, you’ll be seeing at least one to two free special effect clips, the release of the 8th and final Valentine’s Day Movie, a new sexy Unaware Vore effects movie and possibly another sexy effects movie- maybe with Cassie in it if she’s up for it! My site… is about to explode with stuff.
And as always, I’ll be updating my Journal- about two times a week on average. I already have my next entry all set. It involves my brand new toy and a bugs worst nightmare….
Thanks for sticking with me through this Journal Entry. That was some catching up we had to do.
*gives my pets a gentle kiss*
Love ya! Leave me comments and if you have any questions I’d love to hear ‘em!
PS: One last note about my new address- if your interested in sending me something, send me an email so I can give you my new PO Box address.