So I was out running errands today near the bank and ran into this rather large ant hill. I happened to have my digital camera with me, so I decided it would be a perfect opportunity to show everyone what Katelyn does offline. I believe they were fire ants (Pharaoh ants, or whatever, they bite!) so I was glad to be wearing nice thick shoes!
Yes, this what I do for fun. >=) Ant hills tend not to last long around me, whether I’m in public or in private. I’m figuring most people think I’m just crazy or a really mean, inconsiderate girl! When I’m with my girl friends, I try to get them crushing ant hills / bugs when I can, as they usually do without knowing how much it turns me on. They just think it’s normal and I’m goofing around. But not only do I love watching myself crush hundreds of little ants, but I love it when my girl friends do it with me! There’s something about them being so unaware of the actual situation that really gets to me. They don’t even realize that they are taking hundreds of tiny lives. They just think it’s a game. Meanwhile, there’s a very real and dire situation of life and death going on beneath their massive feet.
The only thing I find that sucks about destroying ant hills 90% of the time is that you’re only destroying what they dug out and maybe killing a few tiny bystanders near the top. All the other ants down below just get a nice earthquake. But when say, you have some food with you (which I sadly did not!) you can lure a ton of them out and then massacre the crowds. Kind of like you are able to lure out thousands of humans when stores have huge sales. Stupid little bugs…
As for my personal history. Crushing ants for pleasure, or any kind of bugs for that matter, I have done pretty much my whole life. I never knew why I was so mean to bugs, or why I got such enjoyment (And by enjoyment, I mean sexual enjoyment) out of feeling them and seeing them die and squish on or under my body. I was the kind of girl who would be out writing my name with the glow and the dark juice of a firefly all over the sidewalk and then rubbing it all over my body to glow in the dark- this was all the way up into my pre-teens. When I entered my teens, bug crushing turned me on so strongly I’d spend afternoons wandering outside my mom’s house (occasionally barefoot) looking for cities full of victims. I’d then walk around for the rest of the day with the bodies of thousands of ants mashed on the bottom of my feet- just knowing and feeling them on there turned me on! It helped me get through the slow days at school and work! Ants have always been one of my favorite bugs as they are small and so human like. They squirm and “scream” and they panic en masse. It’s sooo cool! ^_^ It wasn’t until my late teens that I realized there was a bug crushing fetish and that I happened to have it. It had always been sexual to me for some reason, and I figured it was either normal or I was just weird as hell. It’s nice to know now I’m not the only one out there!
That’s all for now! You will see ants pop up from time to time in my other journal entries as they have played a role in my fetish for quite some time!
I know the pictures aren’t much, but I hope you enjoy seeing a little of me just being my normal self!
(PS: sorry they’re a bit out of order!)